WHY AM I JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH
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I cannot stay drowning in this pain,
Especially knowing it’s me to blame,
I cannot help it, I’m going insane,
I cannot hug enveloped in this shame.
Please don’t cry, you really wont miss me,
You never hugged me, you never kissed me,
You didn’t care when I was alive,
So why should things change when I die.
Go away buddy, I’ll make this quick,
This whole game of life is making me sick,
Do not worry when I start to bleed,
I’m not a person you’ll ever need.
Tell dad I’m sorry, Tell my mom I’m gone,
Tell my sister I’m sorry we haven’t spoken in so long,
Tell my grandparents I’ll miss them, and the cousins the same,
But it’s time I finally put, an end to this pain.
Things I don’t want to hear w/r/t depression
- “Feel better soon! :)”
- “My friend had depression once and she did this and now she’s fine!”
- “You’re just trying to get people to feel sorry for you”
- “You just want attention”
- “You need to do/say/drink/think/go to this and you’ll feel better”
- …
“I almost gave up today….but then I remembered why I held on for so long”
